Mindful or Just Mind Full?
7 Tabs Always Open in My Mind
Just a girl, with a few tabs, that always seem to be open in my mind. My tabs. Like little full-time employees living rent-free.
Dinner. Always Dinner.
What can I pull together in between Teams calls, dog walking and screaming at my sons to be quiet so I can finally be the one who has dinner ready before my husband walks in and casually starts cooking without a word — like he always does, and never complains, but still… I want to beat him just once.
The conference call I have to schedule.
Who do I have to invite again? Why is this so hard and why is everyone booked all day like they’re negotiating peace talks? I’ve opened the calendar 4 times, drafted 3 versions of “Let’s find a time,” and still… nothing. Should I schedule a 5pm call and piss everyone off or just send a pigeon?
Unread texts.
I read it. I meant to answer. I really did and- I actually started answering. Then a kid screamed, or I got pulled into work, or I forgot mid-type. Do they think I’m ignoring them? Are they mad? Should I text back “Sorry just seeing this” even though it’s been three days?
My son’s cough.
Should I wait it out, call the pediatrician, or panic-Google and drive my husband crazy and ruin my own night?
Video game guilt.
I swore I wouldn’t let them play this much. But it’s summer. And I’m tired. And they’re quiet. So… yeah. Oh and did I mention it’s summer?
Laundry.
It’s either in the washer, in the dryer, or in a pile somewhere silently judging me. At this point, I’m not even sure what cycle it’s in — emotional or spin.
The walk that never happens.
I need to walk. I must move more. I’ve sit like a gremlin behind my desk all day. But I live in Florida, and walking outside feels like stepping into Satins armpit. Maybe I should just join the gym again. Or do I just pace the kitchen in flip flops and call it cardio?
So yes… I am Mindful that my Mind is very often full.
But here’s an M word I’ve come to appreciate: Mute.
I may not be able to close all the tabs…
But I do Mute a few, so I can focus on the stuff that really Matters…
What are some tabs open in your Mind today?